By DeNeisha Stewart
“Girls night tonight! Me and A’Lauryn were thinking Hibachi at seven. That okay with you?” Kaylor asks. She stands at the changing table to take care of the second to last diaper of the day.
“That way we can get the rice to absorb some of the alcohol. I have to tell you about what happened with Brandon. She pulls Sophia off the table, making sure to keep on her glove to cover angry, red patches from the Hand, Foot, Mouth rash that Sophia has on her upper arms.
“Yes! Hibachi definitely works for me. Matter of fact, I’m gone get a Mai Tai to go with it after the week I’ve had. Between these summer classes and these kids and their diseases, I need a few drinks,” I say. I turn my head to look over at the seven kids watching ABC Elmo on the Ipad.
“Jacob, what did I tell you about hitting your friends? You use soft touches or you keep your hands to yourself.”
“Go find somewhere else to play,” I walk with his little fingers curling around mine to the library center. I plop him down dramatically in the child size blue chair and hand him Hands Are Not for Hitting.
“I definitely need a drink.” I say under my breath as I tilt my head back to rest next to Maxie, the green painted dragon, Kaylor drew on the wall. I lift up my left hand, roughly rubbing my forehead to dig into my eyebrow bone.
“Jesus Christ, Jacob, sit on you bottom in the chair. You know what, fall if you want. I don’t care.”
I hear my phone signaling a text message as I bend down to pull my black skater skirt up past my calf. After I finally get it up, tucking it firmly under my breasts, I see a notification from my granny, Dora, and then I notice the time, 7:00.
Shit, I’m already late and I really need tonight. Granny’ll have to wait.
I scramble to grab my black, low top Vans from under the desk chair; I sit down to slide them over my ashy feet as I stand to swipe the baby oil gel off my shelf. Squatting down, I quickly dab on some gel on the skin exposed to nosy eyes.
Picking up my keys, I look around, trying to remember something I’m forgetting. I grab for my purse on the foot of my bed and it falls, spilling stuff everywhere. Shit!
I slam stuff into my bag and toss is over my shoulder. I hear a PING as I rush through the living room and kitchen, running through the stench of my roommates’ leftover dead chickens and old breakfast tacos.
I really wish their mamas taught them how to take out the trash.
I notice the elevator closing, and I yell out for however was in it to hold it as I rush to get in. As the elevator, starts to sink towards the parking garage, before I open the text from Granny.
June 11th 7:10 pm
Text from Dora Hunter
He’s Dying. Dyson is dying.
“What?” I say to aloud, brows sitting low, nearly closing my eyes. What’s she talking about? I hear the rustling of fabric on jeans when the person in the elevator turns to be with a raised eyebrow.
“Nothing,” I say.
7:11
What’s wrong with the dog?
7:11
Text from Dominique Stewart
What happened?
I hop in the car, lip the ignition, and immediately put it in reverse. I plug in my IPhone to the auxiliary, cutting the bass up all the way, before I switch gears, I scroll to find the playlist I want before I look again at the text message, as I sit idle in the middle of the lane in the garage.
7:12
Text from Latonia Harris-Stewart
What’s wrong with him, ma?
Looking at my mother’s text message,
Thank God Ma is handling it.
7:12
Text from Latonia Harris Stewart
Ma?
I hit 40 in the 25 on Bailey Ave. merging left to hop on the highway to get to Ichiban: The Japanese Steakhouse in Hixson, TN.
7:14
Text from Latonia Harris-Stewart
MAMA? Text back or answer the phone. One.
On the highway, I hear another Ping. I reach down blindly; I pick up my phone hoping it is a text from my granny. Swerving close the street, I hear my tires bumping along as I cross over into the other lane by accident, jumping back over when I hear a car horn behind me.
“Shit!”
Thank you Jesus no one was there.
7:18
Text from Kaylor
Ok. Hurry up. A’Lauryn wants to know
about Brandon and I have to tell you guys at
the same time. Plus, they won’t seat us till you get here.
I look down at my phone quickly, sending out a text out a reply before I get to the turnpike. PING. Glancing down, phone in my hand I see another text from my grandmother. I wait to reply as I straighten the car, hitting 60 to try to merge as the car behind me speeds up to avoid letting me on.
You thought. Always want to speed up after the fact.
7:30
Granny? What’s wrong? Has he been sick?
Did a car hit him or something?
Finally at Ichiban, I hop out of the car to meet my co-workers.
I see Kaylor and A’Lauryn, sitting next to each other one, phones in hand. Probably Snapchatting.
“Hey. She is going to seat us now. Come on! Snapchat can wait. Kaylor, you have to tell us about Brandon. What did he do this time?” I say.
I look over at A’Lauryn grey contacts under her false lashes, “How you been, Love? I haven’t seen you in a while. You still observing at the elementary school?” I ask.
“It’s good. I am working with 3rd graders at Brown right now. Still shadowing the teacher,” A’Lauryn replies.
“Do you like it?” I ask.
“Yea, its ok. I think I like high school better than elementary though. Yesterday, one of the little fuckers had the nerve to call me a bitch. And too my face, at that,” she says.
“Seriously, what did you do? ” I ask.
I hear her starting to respond as I sit down to the table for eight and hear another PING. I reply to the waiter, “Yes. Can I have water, please? With a lot of lemon?”
7:55
Text from Dora Hunter
I think it was cancer. He is has not been himself
the last couple of months. Not been eating.
He’s been sleeping a lot. That is just not my Dy-Dy.
“So, Kaylor what happened with Brandon?”
“Y’all my grandma’s dog is dying and she’s been texting me about it for almost an hour now,” I tell them.
“Really, what’s wrong with him?” A’Lauryn asks.
“She just texted me that she thinks it some type of cancer. Apparently he’s been sick a while. just never knew. He was fine when I saw him in March.”
“That’s so sad. I would be at home sobbing if Jim was dying of cancer,” Kaylor says. She looks over at me. “I bet your grandma is doing the same. How long has she had him?”
8:12
I’m sorry, Granny. Are you ok?
“He is about 8 years old. A Cocker Spaniel,” I tell her. “How long do they live on average, I wonder?”
“Google is your friend, my dear.” A’Lauryn says.
Typing Cocker Spaniel in my phone, I pull up the wiki page. “It says they live from 12 to 15 years. Well, shit.”
I look up to the waiter standing over me, before I give him my order, “Yes, can I have the steak and shrimp with fried rice? And can I get Broccoli and Mushrooms added to the other veggies? Thank you.”
I hear a PING.
8:23
Text from Dora Hunter
I am fine. Going to spend a little more time
with Dy.
“A’Lauryn, how is the boyfriend doing?”
This could not have happened at the worse time, I think to myself as Kaylor and A’Lauryn Snapchat the sashimi the waiter just dropped at the table.
I take my chopsticks and grab a piece of yellowtail and dip it into the soy sauce.
“So, Brandon?” I say, looking over at Kaylor, “What happened?”
“Hold on, I need to order a drink first,” she says. She raises her hand to get the waiter’s attention. “Can I get a Heineken and a lime, if you have it?”
“I want a Mai Tai.” “And, a vodka and water,” A’Lauryn and I say before the waiter can speak.
8:23
Ok, Granny. I’m out with friends, but
definitely let me know if you need me.
“I.Ds,” the waiter ask, hand out as we dig through out purses for wallets.
“So, basically, when I went home to Nashville, last weekend Brandon shows up on my mother’s front door step, high as a fucking kite on some molly trying to talk to me. We broke up like six months ago and ultimately, he end up busting the front window out of my mother’s boyfriend car when he tried to get him to leave. Anyways, the police showed up and he started crying a shit before the police could even ask us what happened. Then…”
8:36
Text from Dora Hunter
K.
“Sorry it’s my grandma again,” I let them know, rubbing the grease from my full face of make-up off my phone.
“So, what are you going to do about Brandon? Did you step-dad press charges?”
“Naw,” Kaylor says, “I told him not too.”
“Why, I would have had his ass arrested so fast. He disrespecting your mama’s house, that shows his lack of respect for you,” I tell her. “Don’t you think so A’Lauyren? That shit is mad disrespectful.”
8:38
Text from Latonia-Harris Stewart
Ma?
20 minutes later, the chef comes to the grill, steak, chicken, shrimp, scallops and veggies on the cart in front of him.
“Ok, people how do you want these steaks cooked?” he asks.
“Can I get that rare, please?”
“Rare?”
“Yes.”
“Ok,” He picks up a piece of raw meat from his cart and moves it towards my plate. “Here you go. It’s still mooing for you.”
8:52
Text from Latonia Harris-Stewart
Do you need me to come over there
with you, ma? Is someone with you?
Laughing, I say, “Toss it on that grill for about a minute and I’ll take it.”
He replaces the steak and begins to spread some oil over the grill.
“Ready? Watch your eyebrows people,” he says.
9:03
Text from Latonia Harris-Stewart
Let me know if you need me?
“Ok. People, I have sauces. Mustard Sauce?”
I shake my head, “No, thank you.”
“Hot Sauce?”
9:03
Text from Latonia Harris-Stewart
Ma?
“No thanks.”
“Ginger sauce?”
9:03
Text from Latonia Harris-Stewart
Let me know if you need me? Alright?
I’m serious.
Looking at him, A’Lauryn and my head shift side to side, as Kaylor says, “Please.”
“Ok, Folks. I have that white sauce for you.”
We all nod our head yes. “Please,” I say. “Can I get both trays of white sauce?”
I hear another PING.
9:03
Text from Latonia Harris-Stewart
Dora Hunter? Are you ignoring me?
Damn, Grandma, respond already.
I pick up my glass and take a sip.
Well at least Mama is trying tot take care of her.
The waiter then serves the fried rice and veggies. “Ok. So you wanted that rare, right?
I nod my head, before I dip my mushroom into the white shrimp and mayonnaise sauce.
“Hmmmm… Yummy,” I shift in my sit doing my happy food dance; lips puckered, shoulders rocking up one side at a time. I take my chopsticks and grab another piece, mouth open wide.
Thank goodness, Mama has her. I hate for my grandma to be sad, but I need tonight to happen.
9:17
Ma, HAVE YOU SPOKE TO GRANNY?
She hasn’t replied to me.
She hasn’t said anything.
I hit send, then moan as I take my first bite into that rare steak covered in that white shrimp sauce; my happy dance continues.
Then, ten minutes later, I hear a PING.
9:25
Text from Latonia Harris-Stewart
Yes. I am sitting over here with her now.
9:31
Multi-Media Message from Dora Hunter
“Goodbye, my friend. Dyson. I love you. Goodbye.”
I gag on a bite of steak as I realize what I am looking at. Oh My Shit, Grandma. I am looking at the photo she sent with her voice recording.
I see a picture of Dyson lying there. Head resting on a white towel, eyes blank and devoid of that teasing joy that he gets when he sees my granny’s face. White fur blending into the sandy brown coat. I can’t believe he is gone, but…but… wait! Why in the world am I looking at a picture of a dead dog?
“Hold on y’all. Remember about my granny’s dog? Look,” I say as I turn the phone around so they can see the picture and hear my grandmother’s words.
“Shit, Nesh. She is sounds so sad,” Kaylor says.
“Really? So looking at that ain’t weird at all for you?”
“No, her dog died. She’s upset. Its understandable,” Kaylor tells me.
“Fuck that, that was gross. I definitely need another drink. I can’t deal,” I murmur, as I look behind me to catch the waiter’s attention. “Can I please get another Mai Tai, extra rum?”
“DeNeisha, what’s wrong with you? I’ve never seen you like this,” A’Lauryn ask.
“I have two papers due in three days and I haven’t started with either. Then those sick kids and their ‘I don’t see their sickness’ parents. It’s exhausting. So, all I want to do is get drunk and forget about all of that for a couple of hours, “ I say, “ And plus, I didn’t even like the dog that much anyways. He was always knocking the trash over to dig through it and scratching up the carpet when I closed him out of my room and guess who get in trouble for the carpet being fuck up? My ass. He was just annoying and needy and I wasn’t here for that, but my grandma loves him. He kept her company when granddaddy is gone over night driving for Old Dominion, so I can see why she is sad, just maybe not tonight, ok?” I pick up my drink, place the straw between my lips and sip until it’s gone.
“DeNeisha, you are so rude,” A’Lauryn sighs, “Be nice sometimes.”
“You should you know. Be nice, I mean. But come on let’s hop to.. I got a bottle of vodka and Crown Royal in the freezer. We can find ourselves in those,” Kaylor says, “ I have to tell yall what else happened that weekend after Brandon left.”
Two o’clock, the next afternoon, I roll over to rub the crust out of my eyes, and I can taste the sour remnants of puke as I yawn and feel the familiar pulse of nausea in my belly. I grab my phone and notice twelve new text and my eyes focus in on the last one.
June 11th 10:28 p.m.
Text from Dora Hunter
We are going to bury Dyson in
the backyard at 12. We are suppose
to say a few words so, I hope you can be there.
“Hello.”
“Hi, Love. Sorry for calling so late. You alright?” I ask her, voice rusty from rounds of drunken karaoke.
“Yes.”
“I am sorry about Dyson,” I say as I yawn once more and wince from the smell, “I hate for you to be sad.”
DeNeisha is a senior the University of Tennessee at Chattanooga studying Language & Literature alongside Creative Writing. Growing up, she found herself exploring the fictional worlds of J.K Rowling and Nora Roberts as a way of escaping into a world that was more liberating than her own. While adulting, DeNeisha immerses herself in the hysteria of toddlerhood as a childcare teacher. When adulting is over, DeNeisha likes to devote herself to a delicious meal and the occasional adult beverage. This is her first publication.
Wow, DeNeisha! Very compelling. Drew me in and kept me there feeling what you were experiencing. I like the yin and yang rhythm and the emotional struggle. You have big talent. Keep writing and please drive safely so we can read more from you.